Forgetting

Run Far, Run fast...
Let the tear drops cover you 
and bathe you from the past.

All that stood reality
has been washed without a trace
There is no need to remind one.......Or ever show your face.

All attempts are futile yet
To defend all one becomes
Anyone that ever knew, will all too soon forget.   (PRP 2013)


*Perhaps what I remember and what others remember is not the same....and the way I feel is not what they felt...my motivation...never their own....Now I will never have a chance to ask... because they are now gone.  
Opportunities do not last ....they are dismissed into the past.  They disappear and are replaced.

Mark Twain...Explore Dream Discover

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
~ Mark Twain

Spinning the bottle of Time

SPINNING THE BOTTLE OF TIME

In the spring of ’69 –  

We all hung out for one last time

records spun of storybook lives

in rocking tunes on 45’s.

“Time of the season”, had come “Undone"

That Friday night we played each “One”.

We passed our yearbooks, pens and love,

engraved each cherished name above

So  Grade-school friends- too soon dispersed

Would not forget who loved them first.

                                                                                                                          

I whirled and twirled midst “Purple haze”

 arranged each memory as scrap book days.

It was “Helter Skelter” in party light.

“guess I had too much to dream last night”.

We learned that reality that “Love is Blue” 

 While holding hopes of “Close to you.”

“Grazin’ in the grass”, staring at the stars

And An occasional rumble from muscle cars.

The reverb refrain of  “Crimson and Clover,

echoed aloud “over and over”.

I hoped for a moment to find us alone

When I spinned the bottle “Turn, turn, turn.”

Off went the lights, then tables and chairs

Our Childhood games outweighed all cares.

 “Hello, Goodbye”, “Sealed with a Kiss”

Felt “ Tears go by”,“That’s how it is”

My  “Time in a bottle”  landed on you

It was My “Truth or Dare” so I picked true.

A bashful giggle, a blushing smile ….

The first  “Last kiss”…  for a little while.

On to separate,  grow up alone…

one by “One” forever gone,

 “The Summer Song”.. overwhelmed our hearts

As in the fall all made new starts

While approaching the morrow in the still of the night.

‘Puppy love” around the table, “Long as I can see the light”

“I think we’re alone now”  made memories cling

 but my hopes fell with a door bell ring.

I  held old Lyrics penciled in with my tears 

“Turn around look at me”

After all of these years.

Another Pervert, Nepotistic non-teaching Coach?

    I live in an area of Alabama where I am embarrassed to address the number of pervert coaches, teachers and their relatives who protect themselves and each other within our poorly rated embarrassment of  an education system. It's in the newspaper as often as it is covered up. (everyday).
     I grew up within a nepotistic "family" school system where my cheer-leading sponsor was married to the brother of the sister typing teacher who was married to the Football coach at the feeder high school who was the brother of the  baseball coach whose sister was the wife of the wrestling coach and was the P.E. teacher at another feeder Jr. high school???  Confused?  Naw...there are people who attended this school system with me...who remember them. I probably made friends mad by mention this, but that was never my intention. They were wonderful people, I know with all my heart they were...but there are OTHERS. There are many OTHERS I worked with...watched escorted out of my school by police... that aren't.
      Having lived in several different states and now a different part of the same state I grew up in...having taught for... hmmm  6 high schools as a science teacher with 2 masters degrees.... now.... I can not even count how many horribly immoral, perverse instances that happened in all the schools in which I taught. There were/are instances that are allowed to continue. Sandusky? (ish)???  Yep...comes to my mind...Administrators messing w/teachers, drunks, dopers..nasty emailers...cover-ups....embarassing????? It should be...and they should all be ashamed.  However more so .....The people who re-elected the double perverse local BOE who allow this to continue???   It's your fault...voting for sister...brother...bro-in-law... please vote for family RIGHT???? (incompetent or not)  make sure there is no one working in the system that just needs a job!!!!!!...somebody's niece is about to graduate and need that job...fire 'em...NEPOTISM RULES!
   I am glad I no longer have to keep my mouth shut or feel guilty about bringing such horrors to the attention to the sister in law or aunt of the perpertrator ...  Yeah..call me....I remember their names...dates...and the schools I worked for...scandals they covered up...LOL... Tsk Tsk Tsk....I was black balled because I am moral, Christian, and I care and I went back to school to get another master's degree to be a motivating teacher, to train and protect our children.....ooops...sorry I'm not kin to anyone Locally so I QuIT...but...EDUCATION REFORM????  HEY I took that class in Grad school!

The Bucket List

Amongst impulse and desires…. dismissed

One maintains status on my list

Your hand in mine, with no desist

And Kiss as we have never kissed.

added to the list 2012 by Pam Robinson Porterfield  :-)

More revisions on Sonnet #5

You dominate my every moment's thought 
Caress the essence of my many dreams. 
Empowerment of strength that truly seems 
Forged from an alloy life and love has wrought. 

Each day's awakening is savored through

I disregard all else in life awhile. 
to favor, rest, with simple lovers’ smile 
Embracing ecstasy secure in you. 

I meet you in the hours from purest past 
In memories and dreams of future time 
But fear and skepticism within my mind
Holds knowledge even strength of steel won’t last 

Yet dreams in heart will never cease to glow 
from fiery hopes I'll never see you go.

Pam Robinson Porterfield  (first written 1974)

Bullies...

   Once upon a time...a long long time ago...in a land far far away called Florida, for a graduate project, in one of many pointless education classes (I was forced to endure)  I sought out the objectivity of the anthropologist within me to examine the current epidemic of bullying.  All through my life...(and sadly still)... I endured more than my share of bullying. As projects generally infer the need for creativity, and my creativity lies within my writing, I wrote a story. It speaks of the fear of  a young girl moving not only to a new school but to a whole new country. The young girl is moving to America. The United States is large, progressive and full of freedoms we take for granted.We enjoy freedoms and pass times that many others on our planet find hard to identify with. This young girl's fear included moving into a situation that there was no way to prepare for. She viewed herself as the perfect target for a bully. Her teacher, however, was caring, experienced and understanding. The teachers' wisdom made her pro-active and she spoke to the class ahead of the new girls' arrival to prepare them to expect differences and to answer any questions that might alleviate their mounting curiosity. This teacher knew that such a goal could be accomplished by her students learning more about the new girl. In doing so, the new girl would not have to face near as many prejudged or fearful situations.

The moral of the story turns out to be that we all have more in common than things we have different. The book is relevant to all people in all types of new situations. Taking the time to learn about others is one of the best ways to eliminate bullying. So, with the author's blessing :-).... the book has been printed here:

Could the new girl be from Mars?

by Pam  Robinson Porterfield

Alona arrived in America today.

Where she came from was far, far away.

The buildings looked different, and the food smelled so strange

“Wow” shivered Alona, "this is quite a change!"

The children wore clothes she had not seen before

And the English they spoke confused her even more

“On no” thought Alona, “I’ll never fit in.”

“I want to go home”, and she cried once again.

"Our home is here in America now,

You’ll learn to be part of this new world somehow.”

Her father smiled sweetly, but his words were dismissed.

The fears in Alona formed quite a long list!

“Look! There’s your new school” Mom said,

“You will do fine”.

“Tomorrow you’ll start so you won’t be behind.”

“Oh Mom, No matter what I may do

I’ll never make friends, My whole life is now through!.”

“You’ll find that you have more in common, I think,

than things you have different”, she said with a wink.

The morning arrived much too quickly and then

Alona set out all over again.

She and her parents were heading for school.

Where strange and unknown was the SCARIEST rule.

Meanwhile, Miss DeWeerd stood up to speak.

She called the role then her voice reached a peak.

She explained that a new girl was coming today,

and that the new girl was from far, far away.

“Although she is different” she said with a wink,

“You’ll have more in common than you may think”

“Far, far away?” questioned Greg with delight.

“Perhaps she arrived from a star in the night.

Or a planet, why it could even be Mars!

Where people drive spaceships instead of cars!

Sue said “She’s a mermaid and came from the sea,

Atlantis perhaps, where the dolphins swim free!

Her best friends were otters and a giant blue whale,

I can’t wait to meet her and see her fish tail!

“She could be a princess from medieval times

who rode on a dragon.” said Arthur Grimes.

“For all of these years she has been locked away

And a brave shiny knight will bring her today.”

“Oh Arthur,” said Sandy “that couldn’t be true.”

“I know what it is and you’re wrong, all of you.”

“She’s a magician with potions and spells

and all kinds of secrets that she never tells.”

“Well now children, where ever she’s from

we must welcome her warmly, when she does come”

“And you’ll find that you have more in common, I think,

Than things that are different” she said with a wink.

Alona's office visit was over and now

It was time for class....she must face this somehow.

The GIANT door opened, it gave a loud creak.

She could walk through the door, but she could not speak.

The eyes, they were peering, expressions were leering

“Oh no,”thought Alona. “It is worse than my fearing.”

Then a smile began, and it spread like a wave,

Somehow, inside, Alona felt brave.

Yes, her clothes were different, and her English was slow,

But a new hope had grown in Alona, you know.

Principal Wise sensed the way that she felt

and the words that he spoke caused her fears to all melt.

“You’ll find that you have more in common, I think,

Than things you have different.” and he left with a wink.